You have moved through me with your soul, feeling
my heart beat beneath your palms. You have touched the intimate
spaces in my mind which I have shared with no others and I
have seen your face shine with the glitter of a thousand stars,
touched the beauty within us both.
Your sorrows move me and I want to keep you in my warmth.
to swim inside you and comfort you in the dark shadows of your
head. I cannot save you, just as much as you cannot save me.
Yet here we are, lost souls, hand in hand, looking for a haven to call home.
We so are alike, my twin soul and I, searching for answers when we still can’t quite
Form questions. You do not have the answers I need, nor do I have yours but
you quench my thirst and I soothe your soul.
I no longer need to know where I am going or where the end may be. I don’t need to know
why hurts happen or why God is sometimes so silent or why my heart is so cracked.
The past is all forgotten because I am safe in the comfort of your arms and your palm is so gentle on the small of my back.
I don’t need answers, not while my hand is cradled in yours
and we walk this path together, searching for the doorway that will lead us home.
Sunday, 22 January 2012
The journey is so much prettier when you are here
Life is sometimes a bit crazy, not just the things that happen in the world around you but the things that happen in your head. My head is sometimes a massive mess with craziness making its home in every corner. But something beautiful has happened in the last few weeks. Something so... I dont know strange to me. I am not alone. This to me is a scary thought because I always feel alone, even in company of the most amazing people in my life and it is hard sometimes to do the smiling and laughing and being the fun girl who is always... well smiling and sociable and happy. Its annoying.
There are people who are constantly moody on social sites. Facebook drives me crazy with it because someone always has a headache, someones life is always shit and I find it really difficult to put anything negative on the web. Even friends who's lives are a constant battle of drama where one thing ends and something else starts.
I suppose in some ways we invite it in, we want the T.V life, the sound track, the awesome friends to meet down at the coffee shop so we can talk about how we ALWAYS buy a Latte on the way to work and the seasonal Caramel Nut Latte is just so so amazing! And we talk about how our jobs are so so so much more important than anyone elses and I get bored and use my teaspoon to draw patterns in the froth on my so not skinny cappachino with hazel nut syrup.... because in the end that job does not define you. Your Superdry jacket does not interest me, nor does your trip to the Marks & Spencer food hall or the fact that you demand to be the centre of attention or that you are going to leave your boyfriend because it is your way or the high way. The point is that my facebook status updates are always happy, silly, maybe whimsical but they never really let on about how I feel. So here it goes:
Sometimes I feel lost, sometimes I am really scared because I always give of myself and of my heart and I give everything I am to try make others happy. I know that this is not my job, I cant make anyone happy, its something they have to find for themselves. I guess I just wanted to share that, and let you know that sometimes I am not happy and that those 'sometimes' happen quite a lot.
Sometimes I feel lost because I dont like the road I am on, because I am never myself around anyone. Anyway, something has happened in the last few weeks, something good and nice and pure and I am not alone. My head and my heart and my soul are no longer alone. I have found something deep inside myself that I have locked away and there are moments when I dont know what it is. I guess I am making no sense really but there is this tiny little seed inside me which has finally found some gentle ground to grow in, and its opening up and it can see where I should be.
Enough of the crazy hippy talk! :)
I am happy.
There are people who are constantly moody on social sites. Facebook drives me crazy with it because someone always has a headache, someones life is always shit and I find it really difficult to put anything negative on the web. Even friends who's lives are a constant battle of drama where one thing ends and something else starts.
I suppose in some ways we invite it in, we want the T.V life, the sound track, the awesome friends to meet down at the coffee shop so we can talk about how we ALWAYS buy a Latte on the way to work and the seasonal Caramel Nut Latte is just so so amazing! And we talk about how our jobs are so so so much more important than anyone elses and I get bored and use my teaspoon to draw patterns in the froth on my so not skinny cappachino with hazel nut syrup.... because in the end that job does not define you. Your Superdry jacket does not interest me, nor does your trip to the Marks & Spencer food hall or the fact that you demand to be the centre of attention or that you are going to leave your boyfriend because it is your way or the high way. The point is that my facebook status updates are always happy, silly, maybe whimsical but they never really let on about how I feel. So here it goes:
Sometimes I feel lost, sometimes I am really scared because I always give of myself and of my heart and I give everything I am to try make others happy. I know that this is not my job, I cant make anyone happy, its something they have to find for themselves. I guess I just wanted to share that, and let you know that sometimes I am not happy and that those 'sometimes' happen quite a lot.
Sometimes I feel lost because I dont like the road I am on, because I am never myself around anyone. Anyway, something has happened in the last few weeks, something good and nice and pure and I am not alone. My head and my heart and my soul are no longer alone. I have found something deep inside myself that I have locked away and there are moments when I dont know what it is. I guess I am making no sense really but there is this tiny little seed inside me which has finally found some gentle ground to grow in, and its opening up and it can see where I should be.
Enough of the crazy hippy talk! :)
I am happy.
Wednesday, 28 December 2011
I Really Need To Blog More Often
This is crazy! I can't believe the last time I updated my blog was in July, although you know what they say about good girls keeping diaries and bad girls not having the time.... Sadly I would say that is not true. In fact I have just been really busy with work and the other minor details of life.
So Just to update what has happened since July, I have found a few more favorite things, my Willow Tree collection being the only favorite thing I am going to blog about. New Zealand won the Rugby World Cup and I am not going to argue the "Australia vs South Africa" debacle because we all know NZ was the best team.... Yes yes they were lovely and congratulations to the ABs but Bokke, you boys are still world class to me. Steve Jobs died and so did Dennis Richie, yet I believe we are so apple marketed that no one realises the significance of Dennis Richie (google or Wiki him and you will realise how instrumental he was to almost everything we do on the web)
Royal weddings, someone else died and I had a lovely Chrismas and was completely spoiled. I have also started a new work project that is insanely massive and to be honest I get a bit scared every so often because of the magnitude of what I am doing but I am lucky to be surrounded by amazing people at work who have full faith in me and believe I am something of a Venus.
I have five days to draft up a project plan for some system implementations at work...... any advice would be awesome.... :D New Years Eve... my dream is to be in Camden at The Electric Ballroom, somehow I think I am going to end up at home drinking Champers and eating strawberries whilst watching that speckly bloke Alan Carr instead..... So if anyone is going off to Camden..... xxx
So Just to update what has happened since July, I have found a few more favorite things, my Willow Tree collection being the only favorite thing I am going to blog about. New Zealand won the Rugby World Cup and I am not going to argue the "Australia vs South Africa" debacle because we all know NZ was the best team.... Yes yes they were lovely and congratulations to the ABs but Bokke, you boys are still world class to me. Steve Jobs died and so did Dennis Richie, yet I believe we are so apple marketed that no one realises the significance of Dennis Richie (google or Wiki him and you will realise how instrumental he was to almost everything we do on the web)
Royal weddings, someone else died and I had a lovely Chrismas and was completely spoiled. I have also started a new work project that is insanely massive and to be honest I get a bit scared every so often because of the magnitude of what I am doing but I am lucky to be surrounded by amazing people at work who have full faith in me and believe I am something of a Venus.
I have five days to draft up a project plan for some system implementations at work...... any advice would be awesome.... :D New Years Eve... my dream is to be in Camden at The Electric Ballroom, somehow I think I am going to end up at home drinking Champers and eating strawberries whilst watching that speckly bloke Alan Carr instead..... So if anyone is going off to Camden..... xxx
Saturday, 16 July 2011
Dragons, Burgers, Fake Cigarettes and Snuff
So today I am a little bit excited about three things. Firstly lets start off with A Dance With Dragons, I was given the book Game Of Thrones a few years ago and was hooked. For some reason I struggled to find the second book and was really excited when I was given the second book, A Clash Of Kings as a gift, from the same person. I am now busy reading the fifth novel, A Feast For Crows and have not wanted to finish it because I didn't want to have to wait six months or longer for the last (I hope not) novel titled A Dance With Dragons.
The long wait is over, as of the 12th of July, A Dance With Dragons has been available from Waterstonesand Amazon.co.uk. All I can say is... AWESOME!!!! For anyone who has not read the books, read them, they are amazing. It just surprises me at how your favorite character changes from book to book although I have honestly been madly in love with Tyrion from the beginning.
Since it is a Saturday (yes, how embarrassing, its a Saturday evening and I am tucked in front of the T.V watching Only Fools and ordering take out) and I am not up to cooking, I have been looking around for a local take out that I could enjoy, enter.. Nandos! Yay! Anyway, the reason I am so excited about the Nando's site is that they have the Eat Well section where it tells you exactly how much bad stuff you are eating, it gives you a calorie count along with how much protein, carbs and salts you are taking in, so now I know that it's ok to have the Beanie burger as long as I have the leafy salad as a side. The cool thing about this feature on the site is that Nando's is pretty much the same in the UK and S.A (apart from the fact that I can have Halloumi on my burger in the UK) so you can really use the UK site to help you make a healthier choice regardless of where you are.
A little something for the smokers: As a horrible smelly, stinky smoker who has been trying to give up since the beginning of time, I am tired of struggling with the giving up process and all the stress and tears and complete frustration so with the rise in new fangled....thingies I feel that there is really no reason to carry on smoking so I have bitten the bullet again (it's really starting to hurt!) and try something new in the long line of crutches I have tried in the past. The Electronic Cigarette from Amazon is my first choice, mainly because of the price and even though it is disposable and I will have to buy a new one each month I just felt that with my dismal track record I would start with something on the lower price range. I will keep you updated.
I am ending this entry with something that makes me feel all warm and nostalgic, even though it is something new, the author has a very special place in my heart, Sir Terry Pratchett. Now anyone who has survived the grunge side of the 90's will understand the sentiment. Well the magician is back with a new novel in the Disc World series entitled Snuff. Due to be released on the 13th of October it gives me something to look forward to and because I like to share the love, I am definitely buying extra copies as Christmas stocking fillers. Although I bet a few of you were interested in this because you thought Snuff was something completely different... Dirty dirty!
x
The long wait is over, as of the 12th of July, A Dance With Dragons has been available from Waterstonesand Amazon.co.uk. All I can say is... AWESOME!!!! For anyone who has not read the books, read them, they are amazing. It just surprises me at how your favorite character changes from book to book although I have honestly been madly in love with Tyrion from the beginning.
Since it is a Saturday (yes, how embarrassing, its a Saturday evening and I am tucked in front of the T.V watching Only Fools and ordering take out) and I am not up to cooking, I have been looking around for a local take out that I could enjoy, enter.. Nandos! Yay! Anyway, the reason I am so excited about the Nando's site is that they have the Eat Well section where it tells you exactly how much bad stuff you are eating, it gives you a calorie count along with how much protein, carbs and salts you are taking in, so now I know that it's ok to have the Beanie burger as long as I have the leafy salad as a side. The cool thing about this feature on the site is that Nando's is pretty much the same in the UK and S.A (apart from the fact that I can have Halloumi on my burger in the UK) so you can really use the UK site to help you make a healthier choice regardless of where you are.
A little something for the smokers: As a horrible smelly, stinky smoker who has been trying to give up since the beginning of time, I am tired of struggling with the giving up process and all the stress and tears and complete frustration so with the rise in new fangled....thingies I feel that there is really no reason to carry on smoking so I have bitten the bullet again (it's really starting to hurt!) and try something new in the long line of crutches I have tried in the past. The Electronic Cigarette from Amazon is my first choice, mainly because of the price and even though it is disposable and I will have to buy a new one each month I just felt that with my dismal track record I would start with something on the lower price range. I will keep you updated.
I am ending this entry with something that makes me feel all warm and nostalgic, even though it is something new, the author has a very special place in my heart, Sir Terry Pratchett. Now anyone who has survived the grunge side of the 90's will understand the sentiment. Well the magician is back with a new novel in the Disc World series entitled Snuff. Due to be released on the 13th of October it gives me something to look forward to and because I like to share the love, I am definitely buying extra copies as Christmas stocking fillers. Although I bet a few of you were interested in this because you thought Snuff was something completely different... Dirty dirty!
x
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
My Baby Girl
I feel awful, I have not posted a pic of the newest member of my family. Here she is. Issey, the wonder kitty!
xx
xx
Thursday, 25 November 2010
These are a few of my favorite things!
With Christmas just around the corner and the weather being cold and miserable, I have decided to share a few of my favorite things with you. Its not every day that I get to spoil myself, give myself a pamper or spend hours on myself so when I really want to feel like a superstar these are a few of my favorite things!
I straighten my hair after blow drying, using TRESemme' 24hour Body Shampoo gives me volume so I dont end up with flat, boring hair.
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| TRESemme' 24hour Body Shampoo |
I straighten my hair after blow drying, using TRESemme' 24hour Body Shampoo gives me volume so I dont end up with flat, boring hair.
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| TRESemme' 24hour Body Conditioner |
I love TRESemme' conditioners, especially this one, all the volume without the frizz!
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| gorgeous salon essentials styler - Black |
Now I love Gorgeous hair straighteners and I love the sexy sleek look of the Essentials Styler in black. After blow drying my hair takes less than 15 minutes to straighten and style.
I love my jeans... I mean that. I LOVE THEM!! Being petite does not leave me very many options when it comes to shopping for jeans but NewLook in Worcestershire has become a new home for me. Not only do they have an amazing shop with size 3 and 4 shoes but they also have an awesome set of staff who are super helpful. Definately one of my favorite places to shop.
Back to the jeans - Petite bootleg low rise. They are absolutely perfect for Fridays at work, dressed up with boots and a button up shirt or long sleeve white T, scarf and jacket.
My current favorite accessories are my wedding collection bracelet and necklace from The Edyn Collection and their collection of Bronze jewellery.
Again from new look, I love their double strand necklace with black stones. Also in that pic is M.A.Cs Fix, a fine mist spray that prevents make up from smudging. Spritz some on after applying make up and you won't have to worry about re-applying foundation for the whole day. LOVE IT!!!
I am going to add on some of my favorite face products. I am a huge Dermalogica fan, I dont think there is anything better on earth. I am currently using Dermalogica's Super Rich Repair and Sheer Moisture Tint.
:) Hope you like!
I love my jeans... I mean that. I LOVE THEM!! Being petite does not leave me very many options when it comes to shopping for jeans but NewLook in Worcestershire has become a new home for me. Not only do they have an amazing shop with size 3 and 4 shoes but they also have an awesome set of staff who are super helpful. Definately one of my favorite places to shop.
Back to the jeans - Petite bootleg low rise. They are absolutely perfect for Fridays at work, dressed up with boots and a button up shirt or long sleeve white T, scarf and jacket.
My current favorite accessories are my wedding collection bracelet and necklace from The Edyn Collection and their collection of Bronze jewellery.
Again from new look, I love their double strand necklace with black stones. Also in that pic is M.A.Cs Fix, a fine mist spray that prevents make up from smudging. Spritz some on after applying make up and you won't have to worry about re-applying foundation for the whole day. LOVE IT!!!
I am going to add on some of my favorite face products. I am a huge Dermalogica fan, I dont think there is anything better on earth. I am currently using Dermalogica's Super Rich Repair and Sheer Moisture Tint.
:) Hope you like!
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